Times are-a changin. Things are good, but not quite... one in the same I would suppose. I don't like being hesitant about things, but I know that we (the "band" and I) Played @ my school today, and for the most part it was pretty lame, I think that all we established from it is that we're good at improv music and if we want to be esteemed musicians we should probably be a "band" for a little more than about 3 weeks. In all that's happened I've learned aspects of each of the guys, and I respect all of them more than they know, but things are so bent out of shape when negativity spoils a bunch of optimists... I've just noticed that Ian's done that alot lately, he just seems to make every situation the worst it could possibly be without considering that good could actually come out of it. It's like he has to have everything exactly how he planned, and if it's not exactly according to his personal agenda, he'll go out of everyone's way and inconvience everyone to get what he wants... which is a huge inconvience when all the other guys are largely passive in decision-making. Our music that we planned to play ran really short today and we didn't accomplish what I think all of us had hoped, but I think we were entertaining nonetheless. That's what I really dig about us getting together... we can make things fun without having to take or steal or make fun of... or even complain really. So I know the girl I liked doesn't like me... I guess I should've seen it coming, oh well I guess... there's plenty of fish in the sea right? I'm just so stupid in relationships anyway that I think it's just a kind of mechanical buzz-kill from the start, and I don't want it to be like that... these girls, yeah, there's been like 2... deserve better, they deserve better than me (as Indie Rock as it sounds of me). I've also been trying to stay on the bright side, which is natural for me... but it's rather difficult when you get your car taken away, not that I deserved it in the first place. I really hope that the guys and I (oh yeah, and we changed our name to False Jazz) can progress in our music and make it more complex and actually write some (more) decent lyrics. The only issue we have as of now is that just about 3/4 of the band are Christians, and everything in us wants to play music to praise God, but the other guys aren't necessarily up for that yet... not that it's they're fault, they're just not on the same level, I guess, as the others are. I don't like the baggage that comes with the band scene, but I love playing music, and I think I will until the day I die. Keep it positive guys... have a nice week.