Got off work about an hour ago... I didn't intend on writing this entry over an hour after I got home, but nonetheless, here I am. I tried (unsuccessfully) to restring this guitar I've been playing lately (it belongs to my friend TJ) then I took a little iTunes surfing extravaganza only to walk away with no new music. I've got a full iPod, but I've heard it all you know. In no way am I tired of music, I'm just so obsessed with what's new and exciting. I'm starting to realize that I have several similar traits to crack adicts when it comes to music. I love it. I love it like life itself. Speaking of life itself, mine has been marvelous lately. I was in New York from last week until yesterday, and I can safely say that I won't ever forget this trip. It was incredible. I got to sing in Carnegie Hall (of all places in the world). And it's sort of ironic really, I got to sing in a place where the best musicians in the world perform, but it wasn't my own music... I didn't have anything to do with the production besides a mere speck on the entire scope of this mass of choirs and musicians and soloists... it was intense. And I'm upset because I feel like I've been wasting my time you know? Why can't I make music that's good enough for a place like that. It's not too likely that I'll ever sing or play at Carnegie Hall again because it is a completely different venue in terms of the kind of music that I love playing... but I can't help but think about it you know? Will I ever be able to make music that makes people step out of themselves for a minute? Will the songs I write make people sing along like the songs I so passionately sing along to? This excites me and makes me insecure at the same time. Enough of that though, I got to see the sights. Times Square, The Met, Fifth Avenue, The Statue Of Liberty, the Newark Airport!, you name it. Part of me wants to say that I love New York, but the other 60% realizes just how despicable of a place it can be. There are so many people there that the idea of the individual is completely obscured by subways and taxi-cabs and billboards. It's a cool place, I will give it that, but I don't think I could ever live there with how ruthless people can be there sometimes. I saw some pretty low stuff there guys. I liked the trip, but the city makes me feel bad about what people are capable of when they're lumped together with tens of thousands of people and then robbed of their personalities and opinions. It was a fun trip though, don't get me wrong. I got to be with Julie which is never a bad thing. She never ceases to make me feel good about myself. She gives me such confidence in every situation I'm in. She's in Virginia right now though, she'll be back Wednesday so I'll be doing solid Chemistry and work for the next couple of days. I'm going to head to bed guys, but you can sleep well knowing that I (David Blakeman) have gone to New York and love it and hate it at the same time. Goodnight guys.