I'm so freaking down right now. There's no reason for me to be either. I have all of this research paper stuff to do, and I genuinely don't want to do it because I know the basis of this grade is being able to grin and bear it while dragging two pages of solid information to ten pages of non-useful, generally pointless information. Anyways, I don't so much want to talk about that stuff anyways. The real reason that I'm so down right now is because I'm completely split, moreso than I think I've ever been. I want to go to Biola. I want to leave Scottsdale and Saguaro and become someone and do things with my life, and just leave all of this stuff behind. I'm worried though. I'm worried it's going to be like Mike told me... "A school full of pastor's kids" who aren't interesting and who don't really do anything. That's why I'm considering NAU, because I know it. I'm more hesitant about that though, because I know how it's going to be up there, I know alot of the people I'll be around and I don't think it will be that much different from high school. I don't know what do. This is a first really. I genuinely don't know what's best for me. And I hate that. I want to go to Biola and get lost like CJ was telling me about... because I've always wanted to just go never to be heard from again. I'll stay in touch with my family, but I need to leave high school... I need to leave Scottsdale. I feel like such a freaking obnoxious, overly-liberal whiner with this argument, because I know that I have the blessing of being able to go to college and actually being able to make this choice, which I'm sure tons of people don't. I'm going to bed, I need to go to bed. Later guys.