To college. It's the title of a Blink 182 song off the album "Enema of the State"... a fine album. It seemed like forever away. It's tomorrow though (today if you count the fact that it's past midnight). I've had a change in my social life recently too. In high school I always knew what to say and where to be when people needed me, but not that I have a different group of people I'm around all the time, I don't talk as much, I don't make a point to be funny as much and I don't know how to provide for these people as much. It always seemed like the stuff that I helped people out with was so important at the time. I can safely that high school relationships aren't as important as some of the things that my friends have had to face in the past few days. I fail to see how someone can prioritize a boyfriend/ girlfriend relationship and how that looks to the student body when fathers die and women decide not to keep the kids they've made the mistake of conceiving. The worst part of this whole situation for me is how much I care for these people and how little I can say to them. Anything that I have to say to them is just too inadequate for what they're going through. In high school you can blow a situation out of proportion and recieve tons of comforting sympathy from people who may not even care about you, but I think real life should be (and is) a little different than that. How can you make a father's death something that gives you personal gain? There are few things more tragic than that... and there are even fewer things you can say to someone who is going through that. And that's where I'm at. I care for someone so dearly, but I don't know how to show them that. I don't know what to say or what to do and it sucks. I think she knows how much I care and I think she knows how much I thank God for her on a daily basis. This is way different than any relationships I had in high school. In high school I cared too much about what people thought about me. I feel confident that I showed people love to the best of my ability, but I didn't realize how much that weakness on my part would be taken advantage of and abused. I'm an adult now whether I like it or not.