Listening to: Lovedrug- Blackout
Feeling: hopeless
So much happened over the last two days that it feels as if a week has gone by. I worked these last two days, seven hours each day... which isn't usually bad, unless you have someplace else you have to be. This morning that was the case. I was supposed to play guitar at my church, and work definitely told me otherwise, and now that I think of it, there's not a whole lot that Basha's has actually done for me. Sure they've paid me to work there, but in the 8 months that I've worked there I haven't gotten several things that other people get the first couple of days they work at Basha's. They usually get their own choice of a different shirt, an engraved nametag and a locker to put all of your stuff in when you work... I haven't gotten any of these yet. And I guess it's not a big deal, but the fact is, it's really upsetting when you're trying your hardest to be a good worker, and you've got people who never do anything who make just as much as you do. There's this kid at my work who actively works to be counterproductive, and no matter how bad he is doing, my manager's just dismiss it and say, "Oh, it's okay, he's just learning." There's not a whole lot to learn about being a bag boy my friends. Put groceries in bag, get carts, fill ice, face aisles, help customers. Not rocket science. Evidently I'm the one who deserves to get yelled at when stuff doesn't get done... and about now I'm starting to think that that's okay. After all it seems like people at my work don't actually have the mental capacity to understand something like being corrected, or taking criticism. That's work. I also got to go to see Copeland (w/ Eager Seas, Lovedrug and Acceptance) last night. They're a great band, they really are, but I couldn't help but feel a little let down by their set. They didn't really have any energy or stage prescense whatsoever. Maybe it was just because the three opening bands were amazing, maybe not, but either way, they definitely could have done better. I went with Julie, Steve and Aaron too. It was a pretty good time, and the midnight walk through downtown Phoenix in the pouring rain was a nice touch as well. And I decided a few things as well... I'm in one of those strange relationships where you don't know what the other person thinks, whether it's the same as you, or not. And I hate these situations, I'm one of those people who just wants to know, and wants to know now. I guess only time will tell. I really care about this girl, and guess all I can do is hope that she feels the same way. This weekend was a good one, today could have been better, but that one's probably my own fault... I was in a really bad mood this morning. I'm going to get started on my homework guys, but have a lovely week.
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