I don't think there is any justice in the world really. It doesn't bother me most days I guess, but today it did, and the past couple of days, it really has. I'm finding it harder and harder to be a good person in this world because of this fact alone. I try to do things the right way and make morally sound descisions, and all I get for them is court dates and demotions and a terrible reputation. I don't know what the hell has happened over the last few months, but I've become a bad person all the sudden, and I'm starting to think that it would just be easier for me to stop caring and stop paying attention to all of the things I value as right. I hate how my fond attachment to decency, honesty and compassion is completely drowned out by people who don't care about each other, and who do bad things deliberately. They're rewarded while I'm punished and it makes no sense. At all. I'm a good person, and I don't think that the world telling me I need to start wearing SRH and smoking weed in the parking lot like the rest of my freakin' brainless idiots called peers will convince me otherwise. I don't want to be a predictable person, and I sure as hell don't want to be a despicable person. But that's just it, I'm starting to find several of the people I called friends to be just that... despicable. There's no reason to be an elitist. There's no reason to be a conformist. There's no reason to act like you care (especially about someone) when you don't. There's no reason to pretend. But these people do anyway. They get rewards and I get punishments, that's all this year has been and I hate it. I don't know what else to do about it, because it's robbing me of everything from my reputation to checking account. I don't have much left anymore, and to be quite honest, I don't know what to do about it. I'll write later.