To spare offense, I won't use names... but it came down to this. The guys and I (False Jazz) were supposed play a show and one of the guys completely crapped out on us for just about the 4th time... but this time it was for his girlfriend. It wasn't that he had better things to do, when the suggestion that he bring his girlfriend was brought up, it was a ridiculous propostion to him. He's just taken away so much from people without even knowing it. When he and his girlfriend are together the combination is unbearable... They've put up this kind of curtain to protect themselves from the reprocussions of daily life and well-being. They hurt and take without a second thought and when it comes to apologies they falsify everything for the sake of apologizing... there's no feeling, it's as if they speak to you like they're doing you a favor. I don't mean to be hypocritical, because I have my faults and undealt indifferences... but this has changed everything. He is and will be one of my friends, but I never thought he was capable of sinking that low, I guess I just didn't want to believe that he was like that. He's even willing to pass up our church's winter retreat to spend that time with his girlfriend... they're like an addiction to each other and they hurt people in the process. When it comes to respect, it's as if that has no meaning to them. I'm sure when I see him next he'll act like he always does in this type of situation where he has a chance of getting blamed or even enlightened, apathetic and apologetic... I won't stand for it. I can't stand them together, as forgiving of a person as I aspire to be, this will be a challenge for me... he made things very bad for alot of people and he won't even think twice. Tommorow will tell. "My apparent heresy wasn't intentional, it was secondary" -C.S. Lewis-