I feel quite alone right now. I'm not really, but I just feel very alone in several ways. My parents are in Hawaii, and my grandfather is staying over until next Monday. I have such an active schedule that I feel horrible for what I do on a daily basis. I know he's used to being alone and just taking naps and watching TV, but I feel like a complete jerk when I'm only home for about 2 hours of the day when he's actually awake. And he gets up at 5 (like he usually does) and helps do dishes and take out trash and make me corn flakes (with chopped up banannas and everything (I know!)). I feel bad in that light that I'm leaving him alone constantly from my busy schedule but there's also a completely diffent sort of independence I'm experiencing right now. I don't need a girlfriend in high school... in case you didn't pick that up by now, I think I'm down with the high school dating scene, but at the same time I know that I'll just be here waiting for the next couple of years. It's a test, and I know it, and God knows it, but I don't want it to be, if that makes sense. I know that this is the time in my life when I'm single, when I praise God for the people I meet, and for the relationships I have, but for the time being, the love I can show to people is strictly conversational and relationship-oriented... I can't show love physically (like I was made to) or even fully emotionally until I'm married. Now sure, I could dance around pretending like I'm love with some hot girl I trade glances with during school, but as much as I convince myself it is, it's not real love. I need patience... and I need it NOW! (kidding, but I do). Anyways, I practicing one very large thing now kids, purity. It's (as of yet) one of the hardest things I done (even harder than this 3 hours of trig homework I have left to do tonight) but I'm sure, in the end, it will be the most rewarding. So have a great night kids, and don't get too much sleep or you might adopt your grandfather's sleep schedule (like me).