I don't know what's happening in my life. I don't know what to do with it at this point. I feel so complacent because my entire life revolves around how badly I'm doing in a class I try my hardest in, but do the worst in. The worst part is my parents don't even recognize my efforts and just excuse my thoughts as useless. It's hard to live with someone when they automatically consider your thoughts wrong. I really did have a great time in California though. I needed something like that to make my life better, and for what it was worth, it was a good escape from all of this. The only setback was the return, I didn't even do anything and I was scolded on arrival. I just really don't like how my parents have such supreme rule even when they realize what they're doing is completely irrational. But I called my sister today during 4th hour, because I was genuinely lost, she's more than I could ask for as a sister and I know that she loves me and can relate to what I'm going through even when my parents can't, I really love that about her. And on that topic, I really do love my parents, and I know that they love me, but when they get caught up in punishment and rules, the mix is disaterous. Thanks for your time. Sleep well.