These last two weeks have been fantastic. Several things have happened with my relationships and impressions of people in these past two weeks. I love the people I associate with, but some of them can do some darn selfish things with their time, their money and their compassion. I've learned from how they've made me feel, for these past two or three months I've tried my best not to be part of everything that high-school puts into people. I hate the thought of living all for myself, I can't stand that. And also, I hate the fact that there as so many people at my school that are just out there waiting to be met, to be respected and to be loved. I know a pretty solid cross-section of Saguaro High School, but I can't say that I've ever given people outside of my group of friends the time of day. It's a horrible thing to think that some people will never know what it's like to have someone to go ask, "How are you?" or "How's life?"... that fact alone makes me feel horrible. I know I'm not directly responsible, but I can't say I'm not part of the problem when I socialize with the same 100-or-so people a day. I think I've just noticed several negative mannerisms in people that I respect so much that it just provides me motivation to not make excuses, but just to get out there and know people, be there for people and just care for once, because so many people in high school just go through some of the best years of there life doing nothing productive, meeting nobody and getting nowhere. I think the most important thing in the future of my high school career will be the decisions I make about StuGo in these weeks to come. With how people have been acting about reputation and namesakes lately, I'm doubting even continuing StuGo next year if it continues on the road it's on now. I'd like to be Student Body President, I know I'd do a good job, I know I'd care, but I don't want to lose friends over it, and I don't want to do it for a reputation or a nice shiny line on some college resume... I have too much respect for my school to do that. I feel like I'm just writing some lame, self-glorifying, expose, but I can't help it... this is exactly how I feel right now. The people I had respect for are suddenly becoming more selfish, shallow and inclusive than I once had thought. I'm going to California this weekend to play bass for my church's junior high kids, so I'll have plenty of time to think and reflect and such, but I'll definitely keep venting my thoughts in weeks to come. I'm heading off to bed, but I'd like to wish you all the happiest Valentine's Day and week... sleep well kids.