I'm going crazy. Mostly from Coffee House, partially from school and partially from church. Coffee House starts tomorrow, and I don't want it to. I don't even feel like playing for anyone anymore. I'll do it though, and I'll have fun. And I couldn't love not having my own act more. Just for people. I want to express myself more, but not like I have before, not like I'll regret it. I love my school, and I love the people, I've said that before... it just gets to me when those people start acting for themselves, and they start acting ridiculous. They start drinking, they start smoking, they start talking way too much, they start playing music... and never... freaking... stop. Restrait is rapidly becoming my favorite personality trait. I also made some decisions today. I don't ever want to become one of those people who is spread so thin relationship-wise that they make you feel left out more than they actually care about you. I hate that. I want to care about the people that matter most to me, I don't just want to tell everyone that they're my favorite person and how much I love them when obviously that's a lie. Anyways, I've got my Canon and my Martin and I'm good. I'm very good. I feel way more independent this year than I have every other year of high school. Whether or not that's a good thing, I couldn't tell ya, but anyways, I think things will start to look up... after December 13th that is (Research Paper due date). Anyways, I just figured out how to play Road to Joy on guitar, and it is quite the little lick. It actually hurts my brain, because it's a combination of two guitar parts, which makes the picking very intricately woven. I'm going to bed... I'll write later.