Today was glorious. It's was Sunday today... lazy like most. Anyways, I drove to Scottsdale and arrived @ my church around 7:45, I proceeded to recline the seat of my car and next thing I knew, it was 8:45. My car is naptabulous. Anyways, I'm living in Tempe now in the "dirty" dorm @ ASU (Manzanita). My room seceeds it's reputation of filth though. My room, my floor and my view are all fantastic. I like it here, granted it is a place filled with lots of things that aren't exactly agreeable or even decent, but I like it here nonetheless. I had a solid day of church/ staff related stuff starting @ 9am and ending @ 9pm. It was kinda scary hearing from some of the people I look up to the most warning me of the reputation of the Freshman, J-High, guy leader. Apparently the J-High pastor has seen 3 guys just like myself come into ministry Freshman year, like myself and end up totally walking away from the faith and denying all things they had ever once held to be true. It's sad, I know, but I don't think that's going to happen to me. I know what college has for me and I don't think that involvement with these people is going to make me a bad person. It's my job to love people to and to be there for them. That doesn't mean I have to go drink with them or hit up some hookah in the courtyard. I don't think God placed me in Manzanita for no reason. I think I can do some serious damage in this place. It's a bad place in many respects and I going to do everything in my power to not let that reputation get to me. I have to be a good example for these people and offer them a way out of this garbage. Fortunately enough for me, I learned early on that life is much more than awkward frat parties and sneaking liquor into my dorm room. I want to be above reproach in that regard. I also went to college small group tonight and I though alot about where I'm at in regards to my guilt and how I feel about other people. We talked about guilt vs. conviction, and I think it's safe to say that I always feel such guilt when it comes to my role in ministry. I constantly feel so inadequate to do God's bidding, which is, in fact a bad thing for me to be thinking in the first place. I have to be consistent and willing at all times. That's gonna be the hardest thing for me, consistency. I love these kids though. They're so passionate about God, it's uplifting. I'm starting to like Mariana more and more too. I'm around her constantly and she's seriously so much more focused, determined, mature (that's not saying much) and intelligent than me. She's going through so much that's it's just crazy to see how passionate of an individual she is. She never gives up, and her dad was moved out of the intensive care unit and taken off of life support and now he actually stands a chance of recovery. It's really intense how prayer sometimes works like that. So she's incredible and I feel like an idiot just trying to get to know her better. Anyways, I start class tomorrow. I'm pretty excited, not about waking up, but about getting started. I'll see you all eventually, and if you're in Tempe, be sure to stop by room 1110 in Manzanita. Peace my babies.