another mood i do not know what it really means, but i am enjoying that. ok, i know it has been FOREVER since i wrote, but i was grounded. i still am but i only have a few days and was allowed some computer time. i love smile empty soul, i just got their cd, fantastic. if anyone remembers, may 24 is coming up, which supposed to be the day HE asks me out. i dont think im gonna sleep much in anticipation. if it doesnt happen, do u know how devestated i will be? i mean just seeing him with his girlfriend(yep, he has a girlfriend) almost killed me. i keep getting a stronger feeling that it wont happen and i cant handle it. i just wanna die. but in the off chance that it does happen, dear god, i might die of excitement. well, either way death is the answer...yippee. i have gotten over my phase of constantly playing "18 and life" and now im into the "silhouettes" phase. hmm...wonder whats next. we shall see, and the next time i write it will be an update of whether or not HE asks me out.