this is complete bullshit. life i mean. i dont know why the hell i get my hopes up about stuff, it's quite annoying. i hate being the first person to message someone, always. i am always that annoying person who's like oooh, talk to me! hahaha, i really hate that. and then today, not only did i not get messaged to, but i basically got ignored, bastards keep putting their away messages up, or if i talk to them after all, coinsidently sign off. that makes me feel GREAT, and people wonder why i have such low self esteem. jesus, they dont help a tall. its weird, im home, but i dont feel like im home, i feel like saying "i wanna go home" even tho i am technically home. but this isnt a home, this is....prison. im constantly bitched at by the guards (parents) and i never even get any visitors, you would think i was ted bundy or something. i hate this life. what a waste.