i have no idea who said that, but whoever did is so right...heh. hmmm. seems my obsessive nature is really getting on peoples' nerves...can't say i blame them. it would bother the fuck out of me too. sorry guys. i don't mean to obsess and draw things out waaaay past their expiration date....i just...i dunno. i think it just takes me a long time to really deal with things and get them sorted out in my head to where i'm content with the situation (goes with me being extremely indecisive). so i'm sorry i've been a shit. i just...obsess. but i'm working on it. OOOH his veins burned GASOLIIIIIINE!!!.......sam understands. it's a part in a song that i feel the need to blast because his voice sounds really nice when he sings it. so there. but anyway. i'm really fine, about the recent shit that's happened....it doesn't even bother me anymore. i know i'm sure as hell not hurt by it anymore (that lasted for like a day. i mean look who it was. and look who it was for. eww. why waste my time...) but yeah i'm good. i'm getting better. and i'm starting to realize that there is REALLY a horrible selection in this world, so i'm doing ok being single now.... in fact i kinda enjoy the freedom. i forgot how much i like just sitting at home and enjoying my time to myself...yes i'm a hermit of sorts...but i like it. and i get to enjoy that time, without feeling worried about someone else and what they're doing, and looking perfect for them, and being around them. eh who needs the pressure. yay i'm actually ok with being single. it's nice to just be able to get to know myself more....before i have to deal with someone else. haha we'll see how long this feeling lasts.