i'm not sure how i feel. but another relationship finding itself again has given me some hope. however i hate that feeling of hoping...it makes me hope less because when i hope i usually get shot down. wow this is confusing. only i will understand. i just know that i don't know what to feel or think about the coming days. i'll be fine if i could just FIND SOME OTHER GUYS TO BE WITH!!!! but i never get asked out or hit on by anyone! not even like...loser guys. i just kinda exist. and even that we're not entirely sure of. so we will see. i just feel like spinning. minus the nausea at the end. but still....spinning.... i found my bracelet while somewhat cleaning my room today. man im gonna be up so late tonight workin on it so my mother doesnt do it for me lol. she'll throw out important trash!! gasp.