btw that is this song that i have been desperately searching for for like......EVER. no seriously i havent heard it in like 7 years until a year ago and since then i have not been able to find it. thank god for getlyrical.com coz all i knew was like 2 lines of lyrics and it found the damn song for me. so i think while i was angry and upset before...me life might be getting better. i should seriously document this point in history, so that when things get worse i can look back on how naive i was. hahaha. seriously as soon as things get "better" something happens to ruin it. for once i would jsut like there to be good moments that can simply be good moments in my life, no consequences or strings attatched. yeah so hopefully ill actually get to hang out with my friends this weekend....as opposed to being the hermit that i am and staying with me parents all day cooped up in the goddamn house. i love being a home body but...it does get a little annoying after a while. and im claustrophobic.....selectively. hahaha long story. so yeah my next entry will probably be something bad...as it always is right after a semi happy entry, so we'll see. whatever....