i keep staring at the screensaver on my dad's mac (it's next to this computer...like 2 feet away) and it is so pretty. i can't really describe it. it's a bunch of still images, but the images are of like these streams and color and light...and theyre just so preeettttty........ today wasn't necessarily bad. not good that's for sure....although i did feel better when i got to watch one tree hill (woohoo im a nerd!) but it is SO better than the O.C. shit. die die die. but yeah. im in a funk today. and it's making me depressed therefore cranky. i seriously have had the urge to cry all day. but i'm fighting it. and avoiding bed. because when i go to bed my mind does not SHUT UP and works on like...hyperspeeddrive....and yeah ill probably cry then. i don't want to tho. but at the same time i do? coz crying feels good? lol. nevermind. it would take decades to explain the thought process that goes on in my head.... goodnight loves. friday the thirteenth is coming. and i'm goin out on zee town :)