yay i'm happy... i got to spend the day with Caesre today, and it was fun :) i missed him. i actually had a chance to miss the boy, i like this feeling... he's the sweetest person ever, and well, he adores me so he can't be half bad right? heh just kidding. but really we had a great time. this boy.... --who doesn't kiss anyone because he sees it as far too personal and hasn't kissed anyone in like years.-- kisses me every chance he gets. i'm happy. aww i miss him, yay i love missing him. and it being a good thing, not like oh god so and so dumped me i miss them, but it's like i miss him, and he misses me too....aahhhh this is good. i'll write more later maybe. ooh but we saw ashley at the mall, which was nice, she's the first of my friends to see him since we've been together, it was kinda fun. finally someone can put a face to the name. the name that apparently IS spelled right but he's a poet so decided to change it. fool. caesar=caesre. hmmm i really wish i could read his journal, it's not like lj, it's an actual thing? ha i was surprised when he said he had one, and i guess after the other day he was totally floating because he kissed me and i kissed back, etc. oh my gOd it was adorable how happy he was. it was like a kid realizing he gets to have a thousand christmas' from now on. only his christmas was me *smiles* mmm i can't wait to see him again when it's NOT the damn mall. every single time i've seen him it's been at the mall to see a movie, and then we walk around back and forth and talk...blah. but neither of us drive so it causes a problem, and he lives in val verde so it's not like how with brett i could just walk over there and see him every couple days eeeasily. this is like meh. oh well, as long as i get to see him i don't think it really matters what we do? sigh. someone adores me. and thinks i'm special. and gave up his whole no-kissing, no-getting-attached, etc. rules for me and makes me smile all the time and i actually love kissing him about a thousand times more than i did with brett? haha that sounds mean, but it's true. there was always some kind of weird vibe when we kissed, with caesre it's just like the first time, which if any of you know what i'm talking about, you know that means good news for him :)