so i'm thinking that (once i become famous of course) i'm going to use this for my memoirs. lol i'm insane. nah but if i were to do something like that...or like have a diary to look to for memories...this would be it. i mean i have like 375 entries....jesus christ i've had this thing forever lol. but that makes it for great material for a book or memoir or biography or whatever i should choose. mwahaha. i'm going to start writing my entries on this first because i'm always too lazy to look for a mood when i copy them from livejournal....but this one is the one with a MILLION moods. and me loves...so yes. heh im so gonna spend one day just writing down every single one and memorize what it means...to further develop me vocabulary... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ oh hey but brett loves me. so life is good. i just hope i can love him back....hmm.....this should be interesting.... nah, i think i just need time. it's only been a couple months that i've really liked him (then less that we've been together) and it's been like 3 since i accepted brandon and i were completely over....so yeah. not exactly perfect timing. but hey we'll see. lol but when you think aboot it, i only went like 3 months without being with someone...not too shabby. definitely not what i expected (i was thinkin like 3 years or something and then MAYBE someone out there would like me again...) go me. but i am falling for brett....i just need to remember that when i love him, it will be a very different kind of love from what i had with brandon, and therefore i cannot compare the two...as they are both extremely different people (and of course different loves).... so i need to remember that when deciding if i do in fact love brett in return... i can't expect myself to have the same kind of feelings towards him as i did with whatshisface. like i said...they're different people...different loves....i cannot compare the feelings to determine if that is love. i'll just know i guess....but me thinks the failsafe thing is when picturing him with someone else, and if it kills me....i love him. if i'm like *shrugs*...then obviously i don't. (it still kills me to picture him with someone else....that's not good....) is it possible to love two men at the same time? yes....maybe.... i just need time. lots. and lots. of time.