i didn't wanna spend the money on something that was just going to be at school, it didn't seem very important to me. to be honest most dances don't. but i'm willing to give in for prom. wow this is a great song. very relaxing and peaceful-ish. so yeah i didn't go to formal, and i didn't get to hang out with brett outside saugus and laugh at all the people going to formal...because my parents went out of town and didn't think that i should be going anywhere where they couldn't get a hold of me. oh well. gave me time to work on my art project. yes. i got a huge box of 120 colored pencils. and i am happy. amazingly enough it only has 1 shade of dark blue. and i want more. lol oh well. figures. i totally ruined my faerie. and i want to cry. faery? fairy? eh. i use faeries for the species, and fairy as in fairytales. keeps em seperate, and it feels more celtic/true to say faeries. oh well. the wings look fine. ish. but originally her body was light, and i didn't like it so i made it dark, but now she looks like a teal superhero and i seriously want to cry, i completely ruined my faerie....i might scratch off as much as i can and just color her in with black pen. that would work....but the face will be gone. which is a total shame because i actually got the face to look perfect. fuckin figures. oh but i'm supposed to go to brett's today for the superbowlness...and then i'm gonna work on my art project there, and hopefully he can help me. but i must fix the faerie before he sees it because this is just a disgrace and he won't know how good it looked before. i hope i finish it....lol. i miss him :) i like missing him...it means i'm really starting to let myself fall for him little by little. i'm happy, because he cares so much about me...and i don't wanna break his heart by not caring the same way back. soon i might. and things will be good. and now i'm listening to korn a lot. lol he got me hooked on korn. and i'm sure that makes him insanely happy...i fucking love jon davis. he was pretty goodlooking before he gained so much weight. lol. but he's still fucking cool as hell. "it's fuckin jack-o-clock!" and then he owns a serial killer museum, as well as ted bundy's vw beetle. this man rocks. and yeah now i'm hooked on a bunch of songs. i loves.