apparently i am a very negative person. hmmm....as if i didnt know that, my parents love to point it out to me. alright ill try to be less negative from now on, tho it is quite difficult. hahahahaha. i guess if im "positive" with my outlook for the world i might actually get what i want in life so since i really really really want this, ill do everything i can to get it. even if it means sacrificing my beliefs and being...puke... positive. just kidding about that last bit. but i dunno, scoot (scott, my tarot reader friend) said it will turn out ok, which i guess is why have to stay positive. if im negative the tarot cards shant be true. weee i love the word shant. i cant do it, i hate my life too much, and somehow my evil little imagination likes to play visions of BAD things happening to me during the course of my life...things i SHANT be talking about....