life is so lame. seriously. i mean, we get our hopes up about crap, and then we get shot down. i mean jesus fucking christ, dont u just wish we could know ahead of time who we're meant to be with, etc. so it can save us a whole lot of heartache? i fucking hate this. he doesnt even really talk to me anymore and today someone said something about him needing a girlfriend, and he was like "but i dont want a girlfriend" oooooooo, stab me now. jfc. i hate my life. if he doesnt like me thats fine, but i wish he would just say it as opposed to stringing me along and one day flirting with me, then the next totally ignoring me. and i cant really get mad at him for it....its not fair. i wish i could just get over it, but i cant, i like him too much...nono love him too much. i hate it i cant function for two seconds without thinking about him. i wish i knew the truth.