hmmm, contemplating suicide, tho entirely doubtful ill do anything, im too afraid that there infact is no afterlife, etc. and i dont want to waste my life on suicide if its not even going to get better in the end. so i figure, it can only go up from here right? yeah...hmm, havent listened to afi in like months, even then it was rare for me to listen to anything other than girls not grey...but i really like celluloid dream now...yeah. its cool. but hopefully tomorrow will go as planned and it will be the best day of my life. haha or close. like its the last day of school, i have easy ass finals, and my friends are actually in those two classes...all the others had like maybe one friend, if that. but then i get to hang with brandon and samantha on friday at thee mall...i think, hmmm dunno if its gonna go on or not. we shall see....