Prelude to my birthday blues

Your Birthdate: November 9
You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count. You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing. Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time. You're open minded and tolerant. People feel like they can tell you anything. Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic Your power color: Pine green Your power symbol: Circle Your power month: September
mmmm it changes from day to day but i guess that is somewhat accurate. the drama part is most definitely true. ask any of my friends and a believe how fast they would be nodding their heads could eventually cause brain damage. so it seems that tomorrow is thee big dehy. nothing special. i'm REALLY not looking forward to it. seriously. i just....i don't dig holidays/celebrations anymore. it's really sad...i'm getting so bitter. i used to LOVE holidays--the decorations, etc.--and my birthday of course. i would look so forward to it and my parties and such. now it's just another day. like my mom is gonna be alone on christmas (it's so sad...long story tho) and it didn't even really register how sad that is, at first. i didn't really think about it because like for me i don't care if i'm alone on christmas or whatever, it's just another day. so i got that stupid thing where oh if i don't care then everyone else certainly won't so why bother. blah blah. so yeah i feel bad now, i just don't see the holiday thing as a big deal anymore. and tomorrow will be just another day. not my sweet sixteen. just a day. nothing that a certain someone will even take the time to acknowledge. or celebrate. or even show any form of caring towards........sonebitch. sigh. ^^i do that a lot. i have noticed. as well as the -->...... whatev. makes me, me i guess. OMG can they not leave me alone??? im gonna go to bed soon, after i shower of course. but they keep NAGGING ME!!!!! GOD DAMMIT LEAVE ME ALONE. seriously that's all i want for my birthday and that is certainly what i want now. but since it isn't technically my birthday yet (ooh 3 more hours whoopie..) i get to be nagged at. not like common courtesy when someone asks to be left alone you actually leave them alone. no it isn't that day when you have to listen to what they say yet....so until then...nag away. bastards.... grrr so much anger built up inside of me. today was just not good. and tomorrow will not be good either. infact it WILL suck. how lame is that. birthday=sucks. the only good thing is the spice cake. and then i shall go to sleep....but the family is making me go out to dinner with them. i don't want to. i want to be left alone. LEAVE ME ALONE!!! ^wow if ever i could prove that i can infact be a spoiled immature piece of shit....this would be my moment....^
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