i'm doing fine. thinking of them being together doesn't make me sad. in fact. i laugh at it really. i just shrug my shoulders and it doesn't really bother me. in fact i almost forget that we were even together in the first place...it's quite amusing you see. i mean now i can just think about how he cheated on me then left me for someone who is (i'm not normally this snobby, but me thinks i have rights in this case) no where near as good as me. heh. nono seriously even people who know her have begged the question "why the hell would he leave you for her?? you're so much better"....heh. makes me feel good ok? but really this is what people have said. i don't make this shit up. i'm not that mean. but now i also know that he has some serious issues (he told me the real reason he broke up with me was because he thought i was trying to 'change him'....when all i did was ask him not to get piss drunk every weekend and smoke like a chimney in front of me. yep. that's a real bitch move on my part. glad he got out while he could.)....and whether or not his new relationship with this emily person lasts doesn't matter to me. because he doesn't mean shit to me anymore. it doesn't even hurt to picture them together. i just laugh. and think about how i'm better than both of them. and i'm going to be happy again, whether alone or with a someone...i'm going to be happy. and he can just fucking deal with his life going through girlfriend after girlfriend. or if by some chance he stays with the emily slut, well then by all means. he can enjoy his life with her. because i don't care. heh. i keep laughing. this is fun. it's a nice feeling to be ok with being single. now all i can picture is how he got on my fucking nerves. yay. but it would be nice to have someone again. at least i'm ok with it not being him :) ~ sing the nothingness love the sorrow it brings kill the heartbroken hearts of those who once loved the sorrow we sing. ~