sigh, alone once again. so i guess he was supposed to come over this weekend and hang out, but he completely blew me off. he's the one who brought up the subject 4 times....but ok, guess he changed his mind. fuck em. i hate him, i seriously feel an urge to....mwahaha castrate him. lol lmao. from a distance of course, too messy. but it is well deserved, fucking bastard blew me off. DAMMIT i hate my life, i had some shit to do for history and english and all my classes but of course i didnt write it down, and now my grades are slipping from my lack of homework coz my mind has seriously been elsewhere......its impossible to do homework and school bullshit when ur in extreme pain. i mean honestly, show me someone who got A's whose boyfriend just broke up with them or something...that didnt happen to me but im making an example. unless the person is taking something (btw if they are i want some) i doubt they were of sound mind to get good grades and focus on school work if they were truly hurting....uggh, im gonna die. i know im a drama queen, i just dont really want to exist anymore. its like wherever you are, no matter what you feel like saying i wanna go home, but even then when you get home, you feel like saying i dont wanna be here, so where is there to go? no matter what you dont wanna be anywhere, so non existance is key. goodbye.