i watched that today, and it's all i could think of for a title. things are getting confusing...they're kinda fun though. i'm actually getting that thrill of liking someone then pursuing them...i love it. i'm the kinda person who loves/hates the chase. i hate the energy it uses and it always takes so much effort that i start to lose faith in myself...but really i'm not into it if i'm not chasing the guy. when someone is pursuing me i tend to lose interest, i don't mean to. i just notice that that is my pattern. i mean with brett the ball was totally in my court for the entire thing, but then he started to pull away by the last two weeks, and suddenly i "loved" him. no i didn't, i was just getting really fuckin territorial all of a sudden. actually i don't know whether or not i loved him. maybe i did, for a little while. but as soon as i saw how much of a shit he turned into right after everything was over then it started to fade. but the point is....i love being chased for a while...but at some point there has to be a little bit of chasing on my part...on SOME level. or else it's just no fun. the problem with this is that guys love to chase too. damn. but anyways....i'm getting that thing again and i like it. i'm actually into a couple people just a little bit, and it's fun to feel the feelings grow and develop. i miss that. i haven't had that in...a year and a half. damn. hahaha sick i spent waaaaay too much time chasing after the same guy, which did pay off in the end for me...for a bit. but now i think i'll never get over him. not entirely (stupid first love. it's such a bitch.) but sadly, i think it's more likely that i'll get over him than we'll get back together...do the math and that is a very depressing little thought. but that's beside the point. i found one maybe two people that are prospects...and i'm curious...and investigating them in my own little way that i do...and here i go to chase. yay. now i just gotta work my charm and magic on them...ha. with what little i have. wish me luck.