love the song i'm listening to, it's so pretty. especially the beginning. it's like some guitar then violin...and it sounds like a country song but it's not. it's just nice :) it's cloudy today. it's a good day. so i haven't been doing much of anything...ha...ever. some would say i have no life, but it's not like i terribly mind it. i mean i enjoy sitting at home watching a movie or two. it's not like i sit here in the dark thinking about loneliness...sometimes i like to have time to myself. in fact i've realized that i enjoy it a LOT...i mean there's not pressure to be pretty around myself, or to be doing something extravagant when i'm just around myself...it's nice not to worry about anything. at least not as much. haha my soap opera is finally getting good...at least in one of the storylines. my god they take forever to unfold, so most of the time i tune it out, but ethan and theresa are about to "make love" (that's what they say every time in the show) even though he's married, but he secretly loves theresa...and i think they actually will because the actress is pregnant in real life. so they're probably writing it into the show. heh i'm weird. haha caesre decided to watch every episode of gilmore girls, and was going to surprise me. he's stewpid and told me about it before he even got started. *shakes head* yeesh...oh well he's still doing it. he betta like it...lol. i'm feeling really conflicted about a few things. i can't explain. i don't know what i'm feeling and it's scaring me...part of me just wants to run away, and if i'm just now starting to feel that way about a few things, i can imagine that this will be a pattern in my future, and i don't want that to happen. i need to make sure i don't become one of those women who runs away from everything because she isn't entirely sure of it. but i don't know how i feel. so it's hard. gah...kill me...