Last night was niiiice. Me, k, britt, leanna, britt p, cierra, nick, brett, chuck, justin, harrison, and stuart (i think thats all) went bowling. Haha we are dumbasses. The people kept on getting pissed at us. Woo fucking hoo. I suck at bowling. We left aroung 12 or so. haha i love my twin! (chris) nick was gonna bowl inbetween his legs and he got scared and lifted up his foot and nick nailed him in the foot with the bowling ball..funniest thing i have ever seen :) Me and Matt talked about a lot last night. I guess were going through the same thing. Except i've felt like this since december (last year) and haven't really talked to anyone about it. I hate the feeling of how much you care for someone and know you can't have them. So i just don't show it and go on with life. Thats all i can do. NEWAYS.. I had lax today. I am getting really good at left, but i'm sure you care! anywho..there was only 8 people at practice. haha. niiice. we didn't do anything special. ohh anna accidently shoved her stick into my side, which i went into the crease. and when we were moving the lax goal on (which is quite heavy) they dropped it on the back side of my wrist..OUCH! it hurt majorly. but i can't complain stine is the one with huge bruises on her legs from goalie. ohhh and i'm fucking pissed that cs got a page in the newspaper about their team and blah blah blah..DIDNT SEE ANY SCORES IN THERE DID YOU? no! beat them 16-2..damn straight. Today i think me and mill are getting together since we didn't last night. I feel sorta bad because we were talking about getting together and then i did something with everyone else. oh well. not gonna worry about it. I really miss riding. I've been riding since i was in 3rd grade (like 8 years old). I haven't been to the barn in forever. Riding was the one thing that i was really good at by myself. after lax is over i'm gonna start riding again and maybe work at the barn because the more i am at the barn the more my parents will possibly get me a horse. we've been talking about getting me one since like 2 years ago, but haven't done it. i would not play any school sports or anything if i could get a horse. But my parents seem to think i can't handle the responsibility or something, which i know i can.