I haven't gotten a good nights sleep since school started. Volleyball takes up all my time, which means less time to study. Therefore my grades are comming down. If I don't make good grades I don't get my horse. I always feel like I'm sick and weak now. This can't be healtly. School today was tiring. Or maybe I'm just tired. Things were kind of weird with Jed, but what can I do? I had a good volleyball practice. Coach said I was working harder than anyone in the gym. But whatever, its not like hes going to play me. Hes the biggest Dbag ever. I'm really thinking about asking Adam from Northcross to homecomming. I was talking about it to Kendall and George was like the guys are supposed to ask the girls. Uhh, what is he supposed to do? Ask if he can take me to my schools homecomming? Mmmkay. "I want to hate you so bad, but I can't stop this anymore than you can."