i couldn't sleep last night and i'm so fucking tired. today from 1-5 i have to go to volleyball camp (which means i miss weightlifting!! woot woot), and then right after that i have to go straight to volleyball open gym (open gyms before the real tryouts). coach told us we needed to go to 2 or 3 open gyms a week and be lifting 2 or 3. uhhh this isn't going to work out here. Monday-i can go Tuesday-I have to be out at the barn at 5:30 to teach lessons Wed-i can go Thurs-i have to feed the horses Fri-I have riding lessons and feed the horses my time at the barn is gonna be really limited by my mom, of course, and it sucks because yeah it sucks. i love being out there. ian didn't call me back last night. oh well, he was with his friends. what did i expect? were supposed to go see a movie tonight. i doubt he'll come down to the salem movie place. he tells my friends he likes me, but why can't he just tell me? i've told him before that i like him, but he's never really told me that he likes me. but i just really really don't want to be so dead set on him and expect something to happen, and then nothing happens. my elbow hurts like fucking hell. i guess i'll just update tomarrow (if i have time)since i'm gonna be gone all day.