yesterday was 3 months justin has been gone. lately i've been able to accept what happend and realize that i will one day see justin again. yesterday was so hard though. every month is going to be hard when the 27th comes around. it's just so weird.. him not being here. chelsea is being so so so strong.. going out to see her friends, smiling. i don't see how she does it but it sure helps everyone else around her to realize what a miricle she is and that we can all get through this. senior year is about to start and its going to be hard going back to school without justin there.. not seeing him everyday when i go to lunch and having him do his cute little smile and just being able to see him everyday. i know that he is with me though and he will be taking care of me and everyone else. i'm not so much angry anymore for what happend, just hurt that it had to happen to him at such a young age.. but i guess God had bigger and better plans for him and he is truly in a better place now. "To let go isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't winning, nor is it losing. It's not about pride. It's not obsessing about or dwelling on the past. It isn't about loss and it's not defeat. To let go is to cherish memories but overcome them. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up." that quote describes everything perfectly. i know that it is time to move on with life and not have to worry about this every day.. thats exactly what justin would want me to do.. have fun.. drink a few for him. i'm never ever ever going to forget him and the impact he had on my life, but i need to start thinking about the positive things he brought into my life and be happy that i had the chance to be friends with him rather than be upset all of the time because he is gone. he has changed me forever and i am grateful to say that he was one of my good friends. i love you justin and miss you more and more every day. keep your eyes to the sky "in the end, my friend, we will all be together again." -OAR