me and my friends are cool one day and then the next everything is messed up. i can't stand living in this small ass town. you do something and all of fucking salem knows about it. at school we have groups. punk, prep, dork, goth, no body's. shit, i can't stand it. i want out. i want to go away from everything. all of my so called "friends" are the perfect little popular girls who are good at every sport they play, make good grades in all of their classes in school, parents don't really mind what they do, etc. etc. yeah well me..the only thing i am good at is horseback riding. honestly the barn is the only place where people don't judge you. and i don't go out there that much anymore because i'm not riding at the same place i used to and at barn i go to now most of the people that go out there all have horses, and i don't as of now. i'm the weird one of the group, yeah i know i am. it doesn't much bother me. i am who i am, whether people like me or not. i have to work hard for my grades in school, and i've always been the type of person that always had to make good grades in school because my mom used to be a teacher and expects so fucking much, but now i'm slacking off because i just don't really care anymore. i guess i don't care about anything anymore. i've turned into a nobody, and i know i have no matter what my "friends" and other people say. the only true friends i have right now are millie, sarah (most of the time, we haven't been the same, though since we've gotten in that HUGE fight), ian, and travis. millie's grounded so its not liek i can really hang out with her, sarah mostly hangs out with zach, but we do hang out some. ian goes to another school, so i don't really see him, we just talk and stuff alot online. and travis is truely my best friend. he is at the high school so i never get to see him and he has a girlfriend that he is pretty wrapped up in. i think she thinks we like each other so he never really talks to me anymore because i think hes afriad that she is going to think that he likes me or i like him. honestly all i want is things to go back to normal. before i lost all of my friends, before i got in fights with my parents all of the time, before school was hard, back when life was simple.