Last night the phone conversation with ian was kinda weird, but it was good. fuck myself, i'm telling him today. i almost told him last night but then it got made into some huge deal and now i feel really stupid. kara was talking to me and she was just like julia you know you like him and obiviously he likes you. but your both afraid to tell each other. so then ian knows kara told me something and he thinks its like a huge deal or something. so when we talk on the phone he is all TELLLLL MEEEEEE. and i kept on telling him i wasen't going to tell him last night. and so now i feel really stupid that i couldn't just tell him. blah. but he told me i knew stuff about him that his best friends didn't even know. i was really shocked. but yeah i gotta go to school so i'll write this afternoon.