earlier my mom came into my room and was liek julia you need to invite someone over or something you can't just stay up here in your room. i'm afraid your going to end up having no friends. and i said "mom, i already don't have friends" and then she got into well you could hang out with kendall and ryan and them (and just the other day i told her that they were really mean to me and that i couldn't stand them anymore) so i just broke down. i started crying and yelling at her that they were mean to me and that i didnt want to be around them becuase they really hurt me. i made her cry. i feel so bad. i know she was crying becasue she hates to see me feel like this, like all of my friends hate me. she asekd to see my yearbook and then said she needed her glasses. i know she just said that so she could get out of my room, she didn't want me to see her cry. and i bet you anything she was looking at what people wrote so she could say "julia, they don't really hate you" or something along those lines. god, i hate this. will and grant, ian's friends, called me earlier. they are all at will's house. grant was like "did you know ian like you, and you like ian, and you guys are going to go out soon. and then he would talk to ian and be like ian dude just ask her out" so then ian talked to me and grant and will were in the background repeating..dude just do it..what did she say...DUDE JUST DO IT! it was funny. i'm pretty confused though because i have a feeling he may like his ex some. on her profile it used to say ian..thanks :( and now it has ian is a slut :) and while i was on the phone with ian i know he was talking to her and stuff. i guess i'll ask him about her, i just don't want him thinking i'm getting mad over it. dammmnniiittttt.....i like this kid way too much. and i'm really afraid that something is going to happen and the one thing that is actually good in my life will be ruined.