Volleyball scrimmage friday. Katie Mac's house after for swimming. TEAM CAMP OUT IN MY BACK YARD AFTER BABY! haha..dude this is going to be crazy mad fun! I'm so fucking retarded. I like Ian...a lot. I guess you don't really realize what you feel for someone after you lose them? And its my fault, and so i feel like a dumbass telling people, yeah i broke up with him, but i still really like him. we talked on the phone for like 5 hours last night. It seemed like nothing happend, which is good. But then again, i don't really know how he feels. I told him i still liked him and wanted to hang out but he just sort of said okay. I want to get over him, i really do, but i dont know. I mean how is it going to work if we never see each other or anything? But then again, part of me is like so you didnt get to see him that much, who cares you still have feelings for him. I don't know, i guess i just fucked up another relationship. FFFFFFFF this is gaaaaaaay.