today i am supposed to go to sturgill's sister's apartment. it happens to be like 30 seconds from ian's house. volleyball- 1-3:30 weight lifting for volleyball- 4-5 barn- 5:30-7:30ish? so i duno if i'll be able to go over there. i really want to. me and sturgill used to be best friends and then she started goin out with this guy and he is a total jackass and always says that she acts like a bitch when she is around me? so i duno we got in a huge fight and it sucked. i want to talk to ian, but then again i am still pretty mad that he just blew me off liek that. i miss him so much, i never get to see him. :( after the party the other night ellen, nikki, bobbijoe, and lucy all stayed the night at sturgill's which is like a minute from nick's house. they snuck out and went back to his house and all of the guys were drunk off their asses. adam passed out. spencer was on his 17th beer. they said it was fucking insane how much they were all drinking. richard had a video cammera and lucy said that they got some unwanted stuff of the guys on it. their so fucking retarded. HOLY MOTHER FUCKING SHIT. ian's birthday was either yesterday or it is tomarrow. wow...i need to find out when it is...i mean i can't just not say happy birthday. DAMN MY BRAIN FOR NOT REMEMBERING.