Tonight was weird? I hung out with Matt at the game. I hadn't talked to him in awhile. Him and Meggie are back together. I gave him a ride to Mac n Bobs. Things were awkward, but I guess they will be when you've gone out with the kid for a total of about a year. I guess he just doesn't realize that hes the guy I will always like? At Mac n Bobs we sat with each other because we were sharing something to eat. We were looking at each others cell phones and I just happended to look at his texts, which I know I shouldn't have done because its really none of my business. Of course there was multiple I love you soo much, I love you sooo much too ones. Jesus it hurts so bad, Meggie and him just had to hang out that one night, when me and Matt were TOGETHER and "fall in love" with each other. He needs to realize thats bull shit. If shes "so in love" with him she wouldn't have cheated on him and shit the whole fucking time they were together. This is exactly the reason why I tell myself not to go around him becuase everything comes back every single time. To top things off the guy I actually THOUGHT I had a chance with was hanging out with Ellen and Lindsay the whole night, who both happen to know I like him. I'm glad my friends are good ones. The highlight of my night was when I was sitting down with Will and Matt, Ben Motley and Billy Cameron and some other college guys were talking to Allison Cole about me because they thought I was hott. So yeah, I got to meet the hottest guy ever, Ben. Holy shit, he graduated last year and of course every girl in Salem, in high school at the time or not, knows who he is. And Billy is the best lacrosse player Salem has seen. And yeah, they called me hott. Ha Ha, yeah my friends are usually the ones that are so hott, never me. I have a lacrosse clinic tomarrow because we have to play so the refs can get certified. It shall be fun, because I love my team =) I can't wait til the season starts. I'll write when I can?