yesterday after school i didn't have lax practice so i got to hang out with my "friends". Mindy came in so she went to eat lunch with ellen and us yesterday. After school we went to mac n bobs and then walked over to the civic center to watch brittany p. play softball. it was hott as hell. then we went back to mac n bobs. LN, ry, k, and min all sat at one table and me brittany h. kayla and roger sat at another. thats basically how it had been the whole night them 4 and us 4. at the softball game ry said something about going home and getting stuff for Ln's house, and ellen did they whole leaning over telling her to shut up and that she was a shitface. okay, i'm sitting right next to you and you don't think i'm not going to hear that, much less figure it out from what ry was saying. so at mac n bobs after awhile i just left cause no one was talking to me or anything but roger britt and kayla. and kayla and britt left so i left too. roger said when he got home...from ln's house....that they were all like omg this would be so much better with julia. riiight, fucking ditch me the whole time and invite k, min, ry, and mary all to spend the ngiht right in front of me and expect me not to go home..whatever. and i know your thinking 'god she is a bitchy girl' but this happens every single weekend...no more like every single day. i need new friends, badly..or i can't wait till mine right now grow up.