today was fuck. school sucked. whatever..same as always. lax game today. we won 17 to 2. seniors started. yeah so i don't play too much since i'm in 8th playing on a high school team, but shit i'm better than some of the girls he puts in, but whatever. no practice tomarrow, thank god. it's so weird. i am sitting here watching matt go through his little break up or whatever with his girlfriend, and the same thing happend to me. i remember when we broke up and i was just, hurt. i don't talk to him online, which is really where i would only be able to talk to him since he is at the high school, but like his profile and away messages. it hurts me to see that he is going through it, because i know EXACTLY how he feels, i mean i am still going through it with him like a year later. I've learned to hide it, but damn it hurts. god, if anything atleast i want to be his friend, but i don't want to IM him one day and be like hey haven't talked to you in a long time..heard you and your girlfriend broke up..lets be friends. kane's party is on friday. me and my friends are gonna try to get some 7th grade bitches who were gonna try to get ellen. their GREAT plan was to push her in the pool..GASP! who would want to get wet at a pool party?!?! ohh shit, too bad we found out! ANY IDEAS for getting them????!?!? kane told me i could invite the mexican. i doubt he would want to come though, i mean he isn't going to know anyone other than me and kendall..hmmm this song reminds me about matt...urgh, i hate it when things remind me of him, everything reminds me of him. ::Iris -Goo Goo Dolls:: And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life 'Cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming Or the moment of truth in your lies When everything feels like the movies Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am