Me and Spencer talked a lot last night. We talked about everything. He's really different than a lot of guys. Most guys would have been a complete ass about some of the stuff we were talking about. I feel kind of bad, though. A lot of my "friends" have treated him like shit in the past. (mostly kendall..god i hate that fucking slut). Kendall and them are in the "popular" crowd and Spencer is more in the "punk, skater" crowd. Kendall and them have just acted like complete stuck up bitches to him, and he hates it. He said he wouldn't give a day in hell with kendall. He thought i was like that, too before he got to know me awhile ago because I have always been known as "Kendall and them" or "Kendall's group". I'm sick of it. I HATE getting the rep of a slut and whatnot because of who people assume I hang out with. But, yeah. Me and Spencer are going to a movie sometime next week. He works at a daycare! haha. Its so funny. We make fun of him, but he gets paid good money so I can't blame him for working there. He just doesn't come off as the type of person that would. I will admit when I first met him in like 6th graded I thought he was the biggest pot head and stuff, but hes really not. He only smokes when he gets drunk off his ass. At nicks party he had 15 beers and a pack of cigs..then passed out. Haha. I'm over ian..but I still get jealous when I find out he hangs out with my friends and stuff. I mean I doubt I would get mad if he hung out with girls from his school, but like him and kara hang out I get jealous. And him and sturgill are "best friends" now and they talk on the phone ALL of the time and I swear he likes her. And it doesn't bother me he likes other girls, it bothers me that they are all my best friends. I have a volleyball game today. Well SHIIIT. Oh yeah, I finally got my computer in my room working again. Yeeee-uh. At times life is wicked and I just can't see the light A silver lining sometimes isn't enough To make some wrongs seem right Whatever life brings I've been through everything And now I'm on my knees again But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Children don't stop dancing Believe you can fly Away...Away At times life's unfair and you know it's plain to see Hey God I know I'm just a dot in this world Have you forgot about me? Whatever life brings I've been through everything And now I'm on my knees again But I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Children don't stop dancing Believe you can fly.. Away...AWAY... Am I hiding in the shadows? Forget the pain and forget the sorrows Am I hiding in the shadows? Forget the pain and forget the sorrows! Oh I know I must go on Although I hurt I must be strong Because inside I know that many feel this way Children don't stop dancing Believe u can fly Away...Away(repeat 1's more) Am I hiding in the shadows? are we hiding in the shadows? I don't like Creed, but for some reason I really like that song.