i actually did something on a friday night. no way. after school we had an alumni game for lax. of course we beat the alums. yeah, well one of our goalies broke her leg and had to have surgery. our other may not be able to play on the champ. game because she may miss practice the day before. which leaves us with a freshman goalie that has been in goal like twice. shit, damnit, fuck. after that i went to ryan's house and we went to her dad's rest. golf tourn. we just rode around in a golf cart and made fun of all of the guys playing. after awhile it got quite boring. kendall and sturg ended up comming too (kendall's dad own's the rest. too) and kendall's boyfriend and a bunch of my good guy friends had a lax game so we went to see their game. me, kendall, sturg, ryan, chris, and justin then walked to dairy queen and sheets. oh lord, good times. then we ended up at taco bell? lol. ryan left and nick, hunter, adam, and rick came to get us. we went to nicks house to get movies. josh was there. holy fucking shit he is the hottest guy i have even seen in my entire life. we walked down to sturg's house, josh and tyler came. =) me kendall and sturg were VERY happy, even though they both have boyfriends. we watched a few movies and around 12:30ish josh and tyler left. tear. me and sturg went upstairs to go to bed, but kendall stayed up till like 4 with nick. hmm. i left sturg's house and had to go to some stupid free physical. i saw the wonderful bitches. they were talking about me and my friends right in front of us. i was fucking about to beat the shit out of them. but she is so fat she could have like sat on me and killed me. i have never hated someone so much in my life. fuck them. tonight i think i am going to the movies with the mexican. i have never been so confused about guys. the mexican is cool, ian is cool, and max. god, max. last time we went out he cheated on me 3 times and when he broke up with me he talked so much shit about me. now we are cool again, and there is just something about him that i can't help but have some feelings for him. i hate it. i will just get hurt again, but i am so myself around him and shit i am a dumbass.