chelsea just got out of rehab and came home yesterday. i haven't seen her yet but i saw pictures from when she was in rehab and it is amazing how much she has changed. its a mircle she is alive and she has really made a huge impact on everyone's lives who was friends with her or justin. she gives a new meaning to life and why we are all here. her and justin both have made everyone realize that your entire life can change in a split second. in the pictures of chelsea.. she just looked so lost. i couldn't help but to start crying when i saw them. all her her beautiful long blonde hair is gone from all of the surguries and she has huge dark circles under her eyes and you can tell she is hurting so bad about justin.. yet, she is the most beautiful girl i have seen. it just tears me up that she is having to go through this. fighting for her life and losing the love of her life at the same time.. how do you tell yourself to keep fighting? she remembers some things and she remembers ones who were really close to her.. but she has had a great deal of memory loss. i really think she is one of the strongest people i have ever met in my entire life. they pronounced her dead and she is now at home stable medically.. emotionally i know she is not and i really hope that she knows that everyone loves her so so much and that god is on her side and justin is here with her. i was riding in the car tonight and it hit me all over again. justin is gone. i go through periods where i am accepting with what happend and i know that god has a reason and a plan for everyone and it was his time and that everything will be ok and then it will hit me all over again that someone i am friends with was killed at age 18. that is not how it is supposed to be. why did god take him from us.. its just not fair. and i know i write the same things over and over again on here but i just dont understand any of it.. at all. i just wish i could go back in time and tell him i loved him and what a great friend he was more often. i miss you and love you so much justin conley brooks.. i hope you know that. please take care of chelsea.. she needs you more than ever