tonight i went to the lake with sturg. it was like we never stopped being best friends. tonight was the first time i have actually laughed in forever. things are finally back to normal. thank god. it was really weird, though, on the way home sturg was like "yeah he's my new best friend" and her mom said "i thought julia was your best friend" and she goes "she has always been". it was like uhhh why did we ever get into a fight and hate each other for a month. it made no sense, but i'm SOOO glad things are back 2 normal. yet ANOTHER song that reminds me exactly of matt. wonderful. Tell me what I have to do tonight 'Cause I'd do anything to make it right Let's be us again I'm sorry for the way I lost my head I don't know why I said the things I said Let's be us again Here I stand With everything to lose And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end Baby please, I'm reaching out for you Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Let's be us again Oh us again Look at me, I'm way past pride Isn't there some way that we can try To be us again Even if it takes a while I'll wait right here until I see that smile That says we're us again Here I stand With everything to lose And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end Baby please, I'm reaching out for you Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Let's be us Baby baby what would I do I can't imagine life without you Here I stand With everything to lose And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end Baby please, I'm reaching out for you Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Oh, here I am I'm reaching out for you So won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Let's be us again Oh let's be us again go here ---> if you wanna see a pic of him (at one of his band's shows), being that i talk about him in liek ALL of my entries. http://community.webshots.com/photo/131210058/131211380AudCrp i guess you can fall in love with people at my age?, i wouldn't say i'm in love..i mean i love him to death but i'm not IN love with him..theres a difference. but i have never liked somebody so much in my life and for this long (like 1 1/2 years) and the worst part is..is that i know i could never get him back. and i know he is so hurt right now with his break up and i know exactly what he is going through (duh, i am going through it with him) and ahhhh i duno. i write the same thing ^^ over and over again in all of my entries, like if i get it out, everything will just come back. who the fuck am i kidding?