Today was the worst day in forever. I just felt like crying the whole day. First, our school had a thing where you could buy people a carnation and a card, or a carnation, singing valentine, and a card. They gave them out first period this morning. Ryan and Ellen got 7 carnations and Kristen got some, too. I didn' get ANY ! I was the only one of all of our friends that didn't get one. I know its not that big of a deal, but I mean its kind of sad that I didn't get at least ONE flower from ANYONE. Second, Melvin and I are pretty much fully together. Randomly Jacquline and people are telling some of my best friends to tell me to be careful because Melvin was a huge player. I mean, I know he was playing a bunch of girls at the beginning of the year, but I thought it was different with me. I'm just so afraid he is hurting me. Plus, his parents and little brother are in town from Puerto Rico and yeah, I don't know, its just kind of stressful. God, I don't even know why I am in such a bad mood and everything. Today just made me feel like a nobody. Once again, I know it was just some stupid flowers and whatnot, but still. It would have been really nice to get one from Melvin, but oh well. And then my friends feel the need, RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, to be like "OMG MELVIN I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DIDN'T GET JULIA A FLOWER", like I was complaining to them about it, which I wasn't. God, I just need to stop fucking complaining about it, it wasn't that big of a deal. Oh, and I feel bad because Melvin's birthday is Sunday and I didn't even tell him happy birthday since I probably won't see him this weekend since his family is in. I'm such a bad girlfriend, Jesus.