Merry Christmas! I'll just start from today, being that its been a month since I last wrote in this. Woke up at freaking 7:00 because Graham and Leslie wanted to open presents. I got a new digital camera, iPod nano, new cell phone, and then the usual clothes and stuff. I had a pretty stacked Christmas being that I got my horse last year. Yeah, thats also pretty weird that I've already had my horse for a year. Things have been pretty crazy lately. Things have been really different this year. I hang out with people that I stopped being friends with last year and stuff. All of my friends.. and when I say all of my friends, I'm not exaggerating.. every single one of them except me and Amy have boyfriends that they are "in love" with. It doesn't so much upset me that they have boyfriends and I don't, it upsets me how much they ditch me for them. My mom keeps on telling me to just wait until I get a boyfriend and they don't have one and I will then realize that I will want to spend my majority of my time with them. True, I might.. but I stil don't think that I will just ditch my best friends for my boyfriend.. but oh well. Never thought I'd actually tell anyone this, but I like Melvin, a lot a lot a lot.. and I finally told my friends that I have had feelings for him all along, and of course someone goes and tells him and he starts acting all weird. It was exactly around this time last year when I stated liking him... akljfdlkaj. I don't even know why I could even still have feelings for him, I mean he did cheat on me. But, there is just something about him. My friends have said I am in love with him.. I have never ever... EVER even thought I have been in love with any guy I have ever been with.. until now.. :/ except, I'm trying to make excuses to people and make it sound liek I don't really like him that much, I just don't want people to knwo.. i don't even know what the hell I am saying right now.. because I just, don't know how to even describe it.. dammmnnnn