yeah..so um i don't want to make me seem like some depressed person, i'm really not. i just let everything out in here so, i prob sound liek some depressed selfish bitch. but really, i'm not..promise. yeah so today after school since i didn't have lax practice me ry and LN went to the guys soccer game. whoa baby, stuart with his shirt off..niiiice. but neways LN and ry left me out the whole time, what did i expect though? oh well, nothing new. its kinda, uhh i duno stupid that the people that are supposed to be my true friends are the ones who i guess, hurt me. and then when i talk to my friends from other schools (which is mostly boys) everything gets better. i sorta gave the mexican hints that i wanted him to go to the party with me, but he was like i dont know anyone from your school. urgh, i hate rejection. but then he was liek yeah we gotta get together soon, so i was like uhh maybe sat? and he goes "well i may be hanging out with kim!" WTF?!!?! guys are SOOOOOOO misleading!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE IT!!!! roger is mad at me, i don't get it. he flips out over the smallest things. whatever, i can't please everyone, so i'm not even gonna try. Kane's party is tomarrow! woooo hoooo. this shall be great fun, uhhh hopefully. its sorta for his birthday but not really but i wanna get him something since we are good friends. GUYS, WHAT KIND OF STUFF DO YOU LIKE? lol. oh and minus the porn. i am going to the lake with sturg this weekend!!!!!!! AHHH YES! its great to have a best friend back! =) i duno, the lake is gonna sorta be hard to go to. after LJ and everything. it just hurts to think about it. keep leaving comments =)