First, Happy Thanksgiving! Things have been really rough lately. It reminds me of last year. My parents and I fight all of the time. I hate it, they basically say I'm a bitch to everyone, especially my sister. I've been trying to work on being nicer? but its not working obiviously. I mean I'm not like that to my friends, I don't understand why I'm like that with my family. I know they care about me, it just doesn't feel like they support anything I do. My mom told me yesterday that she was going to put me in counciling if I didn't get better. That pisses me off in itself, there's no fucking way I'm going to counciling for my 'attitude' as she says. Whatever, fuck that. Sometimes I just want to run away from it all. I can only take the constant yelling at each other so much. I wake up, get yelled at; I get home, get yelled at. I really want a boyfriend. I hate being along. I hate watching my friends be with their boyfriends. I hate sitting home on Sat. night because my friends are all out together with their boyfriends and I wouldn't want to go and be alone. I like Austin, but I don't want him to know, because I know he isn't interested in me. Or I assume he isn't, most guys aren't. Things are a little better this year friend wise. I can't stand the whole drama shit, though. At times its funny, but then its like shut the fuck up, we don't care. Within our whole group of friends there are so many little 'clicks', its retarded. And lately since I am good friends with a lot of guys I get shit for it. Its so fucking retarded. Evan, Chirs, and I are really good friends and I always hang out with them and the halls and after lunch. Ellen went out with Evan and her and Britney find it funny to give me shit about hanging out with him. Obiviously Ellen is jealous about it, I mean she wouldn't be saying shit if she wasen't. When ever they see us together they go crazy and they are like OMG LOOK WHO IS TOGETHER and make a big deal out of it. And then they are saying Evan is whippped by me? HIGH SCHOOL IS SO FUCKING GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!! My grades are getting better, thank the lord. As of now: Keyboarding- A Health- A Algebra- A or B? Latin- High C or B? I think a B because I've been kicking ass on tests lately, what a surprise. College US History- A English Pre-IB- prob a B.. god I hate that class. Adv Earth Science- A I'm looking at horses over the weekend. I'll be so happy when I finally get one because I love riding when I am upset and yeah, thats what I've been all of the time lately. So, when I have my own horse I can ride whenever I want. Plus, getting a horse in itself will make me sooo happy. I like how some of my friends make fun of me for riding. Its pretty fucking stupid that they make fun of something that their friend loves? I don't make fun of the shit that they do. I bet they couldn't even ride, anyways. Sorry, this is really long. I'll update when I can.