hmmmm whats new? nothing except every minute ive been reminded of how much of a failure i have become. no lie there either. i cant take it anymore. it hurts when every second of my day, im a disapointment to everyone. mom hates me. dad wants me to be something im not. i dont even know what i want anymore.wait thats a lie.i want to sleep. thats it.sleep.thats the only place that i have peace anymore.i wish that people could love me for me. ya know? justin wants me to move in with him. im highly thinking about it. i dont need this. i dunno. and then i have court on next tuesday so who knows what could happen after that. so im just here for now.livin my life as a screw up. i dont care.im me.people can get used to it, or get lost.well im going to go finish cleaning the kitchen for mom. bye